Wednesday, November 18, 2009

“So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom” (Ps. 90:12; see Alma 37:35, D&C 122:9)

1. Debasement and Humiliation
I am a 30 year old (and 4 days), divorced dwarf. Now, that introduction signifies a whole heap of living since my remarks in a stake priesthood meeting on June 9, 1996! Ouch! There are three automatic strikes against me. The funny thing is that I had no control over any of those things. I did not then, and do not now, have fear of answering to any ecclesiastical body in or under the heavens for my part in that marriage, one which I still attempted to save though it could spell lifelong misery, a continuation of what I’d already tasted. All I need say is that even though I’ve lived "alone" for almost three years now, I was actually alone before reaching that point. I’m permanently, effectually cured of all desperation for companionship at the expense of other qualities. It’s a great reliever of guilt when one knows one fought to preserve a marriage over the insistence of another to end it, long after it had already dawned on one that the person was horribly unsuited for the relationship and it was a ghastly arrangement.

In an unusual departure, I made a very brief trial of LDS online dating quite some time ago—and never shall again. I made a point of identifying myself clearly as a divorced dwarf. Having gotten the worst out of the way, I promised it could only get better from there. It is not in my character to deceive. Furthermore, one skilled jurist taught that one may sweep public debate by conceding supposedly fatal weaknesses—before the enemy can exploit them with some sort of coup de grace—and then showing why one’s side is still superior. My experience was that the site was crowded with people at least as shallow as in real life. While possibly, theoretically, some were struggling with unfair stigmas similar to my own, by and large it appeared like a collection of people with something to hide. Essentially, that time made for jollies from perusing hundreds of profiles which still did not prove interesting. Here are a few samples I copied down of what certain members offer online as enticement:

"I usually describe myself as easily entertained."
"I LOVE BOXING!!! I watch as many fights as I can."
"I’m not prefect." [sic]
"I’m not so much religious as spiritual."
"I’m looking for a nice, honest, tall man who’s active in the Church." (I got the hint.)

Aye, the real problem in dating IS the height. I witness people surmounting the other two features (viz, divorced and/or 30) all the time, and I was dead in the dating water years before acquiring these other two. Dare I say it? Yes, I do. The 18 to 30 year olds, in such a vast percentage as to almost constitute the whole, do not know how to date because they are looking for all the wrong things, and in saying that I am not holding myself forth as what they ought to be seeking. Even many who manage to come together (and stay together) do so largely or solely by the grace of God.

2. Ascension
But this is a fragmentary preface, and not the text for the evening. What if our lives were lived so that our remaining mortality were ever present, countdown style? Would that finally teach us "to be sober and diligent and lay aside mirth, vanity and folly, and to be prepared to die tomorrow" (Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Joseph Smith, 176)? Elder Hales expands on this entry’s title for me:

Time stops for no man. . . . What we do with our time will determine the degree of lifelong learning and spiritual values we take to the eternities following our mortal test. . . . You will not be surprised to know that there is only one ultimate goal: living a faithful life and enduring to the end worthy of eternal salvation and glory. All other goals and achievements are corollary to faithfully enduring to the end. (Robert D. Hales, in Brigham Young University 2008-2009 Speeches, 178-179; also BYU Magazine, Winter 2009, 3)

A bygone general authority really set up the standard:

We are not doing all the things that the Lord has asked us to do—we are detouring, we are losing time, and that time can never be made up again. That time is lost. . . . Therefore, I would suggest to every member of the Church, that while we cannot change the length of time we live in mortality, we can change what we do with the time we have at our disposal. (Carl W. Buehner, Do Unto Others, 137-138)

Brigham Young: "There is no time allotted to us to use outside of the limits of duty" (JD, 5:1); "Of the time that is allotted to man here on the earth there is none to lose or to run to waste. After suitable rest and relaxation there is not a day, hour or minute that we should spend in idleness, but every minute of every day of our lives we should strive to improve our minds and to increase in the faith of the holy Gospel, in charity, patience, and good works . . ." (JD, 13:310).

In September 2007, I attempted to explain how an instructor of youth had gone far afield in theorizing with regard to the Second Coming. I remarked, "The official stance? Live every day as if He will come. Isn’t that the message to impart to the youth?" That effort failing, the Lord extended a near-immediate mercy of assigning me a priesthood lesson with the topic of my choosing. So I opened with Elder Talmage’s, "How would you feel if authoritative proclamation were made here today that on the literal morrow, when the sun shall rise again in the east, the Lord would appear in His glory to take vengeance upon the wicked, and to establish His Kingdom upon the earth?" (CR, Apr. 1916, 129). Examples of the next types of questions I then posed are, "Do any of us expect more advance warning than that? Is He going to come less speedily and stealthily than He has always assured the prophets He would? Why would we have to make adjustments? And what are we going to do about it? Isn’t the appropriately prepared life too busy coping with the signs of the times to be speculating on them?" As President Grant declared, "The scriptures tell us that no one knoweth. I am sure that some of the people who are wasting days, weeks and months of study trying to frighten themselves to death will not be successful" (CR, Apr. 1932, 99).

3. Aspiration
Seeking after signs is worse than ineffective; the Lord needs active labor. That is the message I hope to bear to my dying day: prepare for our returning King!!! Make His paths straight! One of my favorite quotations, by President George Albert Smith, was unfolded in my February 25, 2008 entry. It ties into a chain of prophetic reflection that I’m rather fond of linking together.

George Albert Smith (CR, Oct. 1917, 45): "Let us so live, that, by and by, when our work is done, it will be truthfully said of us that this world is better for our having lived in it."

David O. McKay (MS, 94:711): "Life is a mission in which it is the duty of every man to make the world better for his having been in it."

Ezra Taft Benson (TETB, 676-677): "We should be ‘anxiously engaged’ in good causes and leave the world a better place for having lived in it."

Gordon B. Hinckley (TGBH, 308): "You are good. But it is not enough just to be good. You must be good for something. You must contribute good to the world. The world must be a better place for your presence. And the good that is in you must be spread to others."

More pertinent for me than ever at age 30 are remarks I made at 20:

The story of mortality is not entirely about avoiding breakage, though. We must wage a war to bring our bodies into subjection to our spirit and to the Spirit of God. Occasionally our body will see that there’s little or no self-preservation in a certain course, and then our spirit ought to declare, "Never mind that. Wear out your life in service and you’ll get all the preservation you want hereafter." Yes, sometimes our bodies break. Our minds can even break. But our spirit never can unless we consent to it. I’ve been patched up in numerous ways. They put rods in my back several months ago just to keep my spine from sagging right into my heart and lungs. . . . This VW Bug may never make the 100,000-mile mark, but as long as I can start up in the morning I should be on the Lord’s errand.

In that same talk, to a Relief Society gathering, I relayed President Young’s advice:

Is there an individual sister in this Church out of the reach of doing good? Not one. "Why," exclaims a sister, "I am sick, weary, diseased; I cannot work—I cannot do anything." Is doing good beyond her reach? No; that sister who is sick and unable to cook her own food, wash her own clothing, or to knit or mend her stockings, can give good counsel to her brothers and sisters, sons and daughters, to the members of the family in which she lives, to her neighbors, and to all with whom she may associate. (JD, 11:350)

I have since learned that he likely made reference to his own mother, who died when he was 14. His brother Lorenzo recalled that when wasting away with tuberculosis, she remained a "praying, fervent" woman who "frequently called me to her bedside and counseled me to be a good man, that the Lord might bless my life" (S. Dilworth Young, Here is Brigham, 32).

4. Ancestral Dedication
In contemplation of passing mortality, I might say that death holds no terrors for those prepared to meet their Maker. I am incredibly thankful for a family notable for keeping their heads about them even as death dealt deterrence. Quite a bit has been outlined in past entries about those who met martyrs’ or soldiers’ deaths. Here is homage to a few who demonstrated contempt for the world in a more common fashion. My 3rd-great-grandfather, Wellington L. Mills (orphaned son of an English immigrant, hence from my only line not here in time to serve in the Revolution; he seriously had a brother named Prince Albert), graduate of the Medical College of Georgia just before the Civil War, died at age 32 after swimming across Blackshear’s Ferry during a storm in order to deliver a baby. (You can also click here.)

On June 11, 1738, Pastor Bolzius conducted a funeral at Ebenezer, Georgia for the child of my forebears, Hans and Anna Maria Floerel:

I had just come into their hut yesterday evening when the child was about to die, and the mother asked me to pray with her and those present. She said that she loved the child, to be sure, but she preferred for the dear Lord to take it to Him, for now she knows that it is dying a blessed death.

It was said of Herr Floerel that he was "a reasonable, intelligent, and careful Christian," "righteous and very industrious," "a pious, knowledgeable, and skillful man who knows how to deal with people in a true Christian manner and to make people accept his advice; and he wishes and is willing to give his time to the service of his neighbor and for the glory of the Lord, without any self-interest," that "he has a beautiful gift in getting on with children, is loved in the entire community, is content with little, and thus useful to God and man," and that he and his wife led a blessed marriage "as an example for all married people," and on another occasion that "Hanns Flerl and his wife are deeply devout people; and their blessed, quiet, and humble way of life is edifying for everybody in our community. I consider especially their frequent prayers and intercession a great benefaction for me and the entire community. But to them applies the saying: ‘Whom I love I chasten and scourge,’ etc."

They were "a godly couple," who "have God’s blessing, but also Christ’s cross; and they know how to find themselves in it." In 1747, he rushed to their home as "the child in her died and the mother was close to death. She had already taken leave of her dear husband and would gladly have passed on, since, filled with faith, she had recognized her Savior who blesses us all." She was the great woman of whom I proudly repeat, she "takes her Christianity very seriously." In pondering the type of future I’d like to have, I enjoy the phrase concerning those two: "our pious and dear mill manager Hans Flerl and his like-minded wife."

Hans’ brother, Carl, had no surviving children. In 1750, it was written:

Concerning Carl Flerl I was told that he praises God sincerely for the blessed departure of his little son from this world, by which good has been done not only to the child but also to its parents. The father recognizes that he loved this sensible child all too much and would have sought the world and temporal things to better its physical care. Now that it is with its Savior in heaven, his heart has been torn by the grace of God from all visible things, the child died an edifying death.

The tombstone of Walter Thomas Ferrell, my 3rd-great-uncle, who died at 8 months: "Sleep on sweet Walter and take your rest. God called thee home. He thought it best." A man being hanged later in Texas confessed to the most painful murder he’d ever committed, whereby he shot my relative, Nathaniel Stanley, from his horse to obtain his money. As Nathaniel’s life ebbed away, he did not quake or quail, but cantankerously demanded why the thief didn’t "come out like a man and kill him," whereupon the man hit him in the head to finish him off.

5. Epiphany
Finally, speaking of impending doom, that is curiously close to the type of personal feeling that has developed over the years in connection with dating. I quite literally have gotten this sense like ascending the gallows as the time drew near to go out. The process has been an unending stupor of thought, and I gradually came to realize that I dreaded it so much because there has never been an ounce of sustaining inspiration in the process for me. Because in other commonplace activities I had at least a shred more strength, I often came to wonder: "my dating life has been so strange, either God or Satan is intervening. If God, it’s odd that He’d tell me to persist while blockading; if Satan, again, why wouldn’t God remove the barrier?" (journal, 03/30/03). It was as though the Spirit, felt on every other occasion and in every other circumstance, drained away in punishment. This really wreaks havoc on the mind of one who wishes to do the right thing, which would seem to be persistence in duty.

I have long vented the frustration that in my life I could obtain with certainty the answer to anything through the gospel...except for this one matter. At times I’ve detected a tangible shade of a divine smile over the mystery. At long last, mercy prevailed after I turned 30. I have been desperately in need of reformulating my battle plan, and the problem persisted of silence in the heavens, so I turned to a priesthood leader for a blessing. The result was a crystal clear recapitulation of Elder Scott’s counsel on personal revelation. While many in my position—including myself, at one point—might have said, "Yeah, I know. That has yet to yield an answer. But shouldn’t something have given by now?", I felt it was a definite call to try again, to go to the Lord in private and seek Him earnestly. The heavens were opened on Sunday night, and I have been rejoicing in my newfound freedom ever since.

I submitted the question to the Lord, and was actually stunned that He approved of a determination of mine. Earlier this year, I vowed a vow . . . and I was almost afraid to run it by Him, though I knew it needed His approbation, modification, or elimination. You see, I grow weary of every variety of scheme to get me on dates. If simply going out brought joy, then, yes, I’d consent in a heartbeat. But what if it brings the opposite? What if it spells nothing but turmoil for an otherwise internally placid and hopeful life? What if I have actually been instructed to expect nothing but years of suffering on account of women? That alone would not obviate the burden for a single priesthood bearer to date. Without our Supreme Commander’s dismissal, though it be a suicide mission, ours should be like Colonel Magaw’s declaration to defend Fort Washington: "actuated by the most glorious cause that mankind ever fought in, I am determined to defend this post to the last extremity." There is General Wayne’s similarly devout dedication to Washington: "Give the order, sir, and I will lay siege to hell." In heaven’s unique testing of God’s children, the most glorious causes are often right up to the final hour those that are to all mortal appearances the most lost.

This brings me to the vow, which I carefully placed on the altar, framing it in a better spirit of humility than it was here formulated to a friend over a week ago: "I will never demean myself with dating again except on conditions that it is almost entirely under my control, at least initially, and in line with personal wishes, or I can tell that the Lord is definitely in it with me." And though mobs combine against me for it, I cannot mistake the fiery assertion from above that my underlying sentiment is, at least for the time being, correct.

Now, I’m not saying I haven’t gone out with some good girls over the years. But I am saying unequivocally that it’s been a demeaning time in the dating world. Overall, I’ve been treated very uncaringly, probably abominably—not that others don’t get this to some or just as full a degree. It tidily sums up the dating experience to report that one of the best and most complimentary girls in one ward, when I asked her out, unthinkingly replied, "Might as well." It’s too bad nothing better had come along for her sake, as my earlier belief that punishing a girl’s lack of honesty by taking her out against implied disinterest has been replaced by the knowledge that it punishes me at least doubly.

If this is what I’ve come to expect, and in some ways the best I've come to expect, from those who know something about me via ward dealings, why on earth would I ever agree to a blind date? I decided years ago, when it comes to being a man seeking dates, it is ironically better to be loved than respected. If one stands yea high and has just the right neolithic set of jaw and forehead, with proper cleft in his chin, it covereth a multitude of sins. ;-) Bonus points for biceps. (It’s pleasant to contemplate that one dentist, who had to perform an extraction due to overcrowding—still never had a cavity at 30!—informed me that I was tougher than the BYU football team. No, that wasn’t at the University of Utah. Again, I am not establishing a pedestal here; the Lord has affirmed that he will plead our cause. The whole point of this entry is that He has agreed to the performance of that promise on my behalf.)

So, while there’s a very real danger of people misinterpreting what may appear like personal revelation contrary to general counsel, I feel that my odds can’t possibly be any worse than they were before making this official. It is also contrary to my character to ask out women who don’t want to go, and heaven knows I’ve paid enough of a price that I shouldn’t have to go with those whom I don’t want to. There’s no longer any appreciable difference to me if some of my ex’s final words happened to be true: "Nobody will ever want you. Nobody wants you." (Thanks to my meekly bearing it, I can review the scene without any remorse.) What hurts is the haunting fear this might prove true, while forced to test the painful proposition constantly. I’m so much happier now that I can’t believe I spent more than a decade trying so hard to date, when it obviously wasn’t meant to be, so far. I seem to have acquired more potential phobias than skills in the duration. But I’ve done what I’ve done with real and pure intent, like that explained in my journal in August 2002: "The reason I worry so much is that something either affects my eternal salvation or it doesn’t concern me at all."

6. Personal Dedication
The sheer strength of the answer came in direct response to a certain volume of willingness. I have so far to go, so much to learn and do, but I want to fulfill to the utmost whatever Heavenly Father intended for my life here on earth. May not one whit fall undone. Even if it is the hardest road, I implored, that is how I want to serve His children. What I want, though it be twenty years distant, is the woman who will best help me to be that kind of servant. In saying this, I am not preaching the false "soulmate" doctrine, but I asked for not the second best, third best, or any manner of settling; I want the best spouse for me, to inspire me into accomplishing that, and God bless her soul for it.

Stake Conference this weekend both spurred me on to revisit how dating would apply in my life, and to derive comfort from the president’s admonition that we not let anyone make the choice for us of who to marry in the temple. Like I’ve said, the girl herself shouldn’t make that choice (been there, done that), her bishop shouldn’t (by implying that my valid concerns were too exacting of standards), and others shouldn’t (even by their antagonism, for the more her parents disliked me, the more determined I was to show that I’m capable of anything—what’s left to prove in life, after you’ve asked an "enemy" for their daughter’s hand?). This is why I’m especially grateful to have a witness of the Spirit to buttress my arguments against what others invariably tell me to do. The absence of such guidance led to a gradual decline in my judgment, a preparatory deconditioning.

A roommate once quite seriously lectured me about learning what my place and league were and not bothering to look outside of it. I also recall whispering to another roommate, concerning one of the choicest young women in the ward, "Did I just hear her take the Lord’s name in vain?" He actually called out, "Kris is too good for the girls!" in a mocking tone. I say this not to suggest I am without other vices, but to show that it is fully possible to do and plausible that it’s important to me: I have also gone 30 years without ever cursing. I was literally pained to hear that girl’s lips pronounce what they did. I wasn’t pronouncing return judgment upon her in my taking seriously what the Lord takes seriously, "for the LORD will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain." Still another roommate stared blankly at me when I brushed off a suggested prospect as far too brazen and confused for me. He echoed, "But she’s short." I assure you, I have a very unusual personality, even among short people. Whether she comes that way or not is practically irrelevant to the real considerations. The Lord respects our wishes in ways that nobody else can, and there’s no better partner to have in tracking down an ideal companion.

Once more, as in my October 25, 2008 entry, I adopt Elder Talmage’s bachelorhood prayer: "Lord, Thou knowest that I have very few acquaintances among the young women of Zion, and Thou hast full knowledge of them all. Guide me to her who is meant to be my help-meet in life." The burning, absolutely confident reassurance bestowed upon me was that no one can choose her for me. He knows who she is and what we are each doing at this very moment. I can drive myself insane trying to force His hand, as I have through a defunct dating system, or I can rise to the measure of the quotations heretofore offered, hitting Satan’s kingdom hard for the sake of my fellow man, trusting that she’s not going to be hung up over my height when she meets me...that she won’t make a game out of the most important choice here in mortality after that of our spiritual loyalties, nor will she toy with my badly mauled feelings.

I find myself mentally replaying some contemporary lyrics, strangely enough. Of dubious application would be Bytheway’s ditty: "The wrong one/Is the right one/To lead you/To the best one" (What I Wish I’d Known When I was Single, 82). At any rate, I respectfully quit the field of this "fruitless experience . . . midway between undergoing a continuous root canal operation and an ongoing tedious job interview" (Kristen M. Oaks, A Single Voice, 82), refusing to any longer "dally along in a fruitless, frustrating, and frivolous dating game" (Teachings of Gordon B. Hinckley, 603). If ever I ride in again, it will either be purely as an exercise in relaxed amusement or in my full might, certainly not at the condescending sufferance of others. I won’t merely set my sights on what seems like it might possibly be pleasant, if only I could get close enough. I don’t ask brethren to accompany me in my symbolic departure—indeed, I discourage that.

Don’t fear for me. It is in the Lord’s hands, and this act might be termed assuming my place among the children of men without apology. I’ve certainly come of age! I have more important things to attend to in my life now than these paltry concerns that have consumed so much anxiety for so many years, though I’ll always welcome a partner to share my life’s journey: not to make me controller of her destiny, but to make our mutual interest easier for the both of us.

The stern warning, then, is that there are some fundamental things she must be very serious about, one of them being my dignity (you know, at the outset) and the others essentially being the gospel. By this, I do mean compatibility in gospel living, not like my ex’s response to my final feeble effort to break off engagement in saying that I didn’t think we were on the same page spiritually: "I want the same things you do." (Whether in time or eternity, I hope that some day she realizes that she did everything in her power, including a powerful dose of self-deception, to make me marry her.) Very few Latter-day Saints would say otherwise if confronted with the issue, but how honest are they with themselves? I ask, "In reading my blog, oozing with fearsomely vigorous individuality, do you truly get the sense you want all the same things I do?" There’s nothing excessive or needlessly exclusive about the only expectations I have in seeking a companion.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Profiles in Courage: Charles LaPierre

I’ve been told that a certain set of ancestors would provide quite a story. The wealth of new material I’ve unearthed, most within just the past three weeks, in spite of complete lack of acquaintance with French, only heightens that feeling. In my eagerness to share this inspiring account—or that portion which I’ve been able to painstakingly assemble—I nonetheless make no literary pretensions, and I know this is compiled disastrously. (The sources named at the end are only those readily at hand.) I will, however, claim the literary license to rove freely among some extended relations and simply expect the reader to keep up. All linkage is provided for the reward of the patient.

The primary Protestant protagonist remains enigmatic. Charles LaPierre, the son of Jean Pierre and Philis Remesie, received baptism March 17 or 19, 1655 in LaSalle, Gard (region of Languedoc), France. (Click here for a view of the pleasant hamlet, and here to see a bridge he would have used.) If I’m not mistaken in my interpretation, the register indicates that he was born on the 20th of February. His name often fluctuated (even on the same record) in earlier years between Payre, Peyre, Pieyre, Pierre, and eventually LaPierre. By the late 1670s, he quite consistently signed his name to that effect, with a lovely, literate flourish.

He owned additional property at St. Hippolyte, presumably the Saint-Hippolyte-du-Fort approximately four miles south. (One obscure reference, during the troubled times in which we shall soon be immersed, mentions the danger from soldiers at a fort in the latter place, while reciting LaPierre’s cordial hospitality to fellow fugitives.) A cursory inspection of that town’s early baptisms only verifies the insular nature of the times, adducing no compelling reason to believe there was a branch of Pierres there—I did, however, spot a Remesie.

Charles LaPierre married Jeanne Roque on January 20, 1680 in LaSalle, according to the rites of the Reformed church (which is to say, Protestant). This shoemaker and his bride welcomed their first child (and my direct ancestor), Jean, into this world on February 6, 1681. (Contrary to the proliferation of erroneous statements that it was on the 2nd.) The little boy was presented by "Jean Lapierre, grandfather," and "Marguerite Guionne," his maternal grandmother. Another little boy, Charles, joined the family in late 1682. From all indications, the latter did not survive into adulthood.

LaPierre’s political antipathies can be traced back to a petition from the city of Le Vigan (roughly 8.5 miles west in a southerly bearing line from LaSalle) to the Marquis of Montanegre. Signed on July 24, 1684, regrettably only by surname, no fewer than three LaPierres affixed their signature. This protested the practice of "dragonnading," or dispersing the king’s troops—dragoons—throughout the countryside of suspect Huguenot regions, which generally made life miserable, oftentimes in appalling fashion. In this case, the citizens cited the difficulty of paying for the subsistence of these troops, running above 100,000 livres since October. One co-signer, the schoolmaster [Francois] Vivens (or Vivent) would become very (in)famous indeed, and a close companion to LaPierre. Keep in mind that this was not a safe activity! One 72-year-old pastor, Isaac Homel, the first in an ever-growing number, was broken on the wheel for not showing contrition after voicing such disapproval. Years later, his daughter recalled how he continued to sing and preach as this was carried out.

At this point, I introduce the brilliantly tragic figure, at this time already actively at work, who within a few years became another companion to LaPierre’s future sufferings: Claude Brousson.
This lawyer, ultimately excluded from his practice by steadily tightening strictures on Protestants, orated so skillfully that he maintained his place in a hostile Catholic environment long after others had been debarred. When the worsening climate forced a choice, he utilized his talents on behalf of the Protestant/Huguenot cause. He later became a most prolific writer and revered preacher, sending his message all the way to the king.

Judgment Day struck on October 18, 1685, with the revocation of the Edict of Nantes. The new decree’s harsh terms forbade all levels of society from practicing the Protestant religion "in any place or private house, under any pretext whatever," encouraged baptism and Catholic training of children, and placed all Huguenots under the predicament of illegality of immigration. The king surely felt that the desired outcome of conversion was the only option remaining. Only ministers had leave to depart the kingdom, and that within two weeks.

An unexpected lack of compliance evoked harsh measures against the most recalcitrant regions, foremost among which was Languedoc, amid the Cevennes mountains. I do not know what the date of "general submission" of the town of LaSalle was, but thereafter three names, which will prove of interest in this study, appear on the official list of "fugitives" who had left behind property upon the calamitous announcement, also amounting to some of the highest figures: Pierre Durand, Jean Roque, and Jean La Pierre shoemaker. Guillaume Guion, another wealthy fugitive, is probably related, but this remains unconfirmed. (That Charles’ father, brother, and son all bear the name Jean leads to considerable confusion; some scholars entertained passingly the possibility of two preachers, Jean and Charles. This Jean was in all likelihood one of the signers of the Le Vigan document. This is simplified considerably if we realize that the youngest Jean was far too young, and the brother Jean is accounted for by an entry in 1654: "died, Jean son of Jean la pierre, shoemaker." Given the peculiarities of naming patterns, it’s not altogether impossible that Charles’ full name was Jean Charles LaPierre.) Durand, "regent and sexton to LaSalle," had owned "the most beautiful" property, and this was converted into barracks. When Sainte-Croix de Caderle was assaulted, Martha, the widow of Antoine Roques (uncle to Charles’ wife), also went into the countryside. She was 74 years old at the time, and would spend many years there with her daughter, Marguerite.

Secret meetings continued, scarcely abated, on an organized basis called "The Desert." At one night-time gathering, in January 1686, there were nearly 400 people from LaSalle and surrounding locales assembled for sermon and sacrament. A lamp hung from a nearby apple tree. Pierre Durand opened and closed the meeting with prayers, and here we see the fiery, young Vivent deliver a sermon, warning those who partook that they must not thereafter take Mass. (Residents often had to endure the indignity of accepting Catholic communion wafers offered at the point of dragoons’ bayonets, even before the Revocation.) Jean Roques, son of the aforementioned Antoine, and cousin to Charles’ wife, was a predicant, or lay preacher, on this occasion acting as one of two guides and bodyguards for Vivent. When Vivent asked him to help administer the sacrament, Roques first laid his gun down on the table. In conformity with such proceedings, Roques publicly declared before Vivent that he would "live and die a Protestant." None who had gone back on their religion were permitted to take at this time, though one cried for the privilege.

Soon, Jean’s brother, Henri, a carder (one who works with wool), was among four people arrested in the vicinity of their hometown of Caderle. Some sources mistake him for a son of Jean Roque and Marguerite Guion, hence brother to Charles’ wife, Jeanne. One of them does just credit in attributing to that family having "suffered so greatly for their faith." His age does not preclude this finding, though I have yet to locate him in that family unit. The remainder of the accounts securely place him as a cousin. Regardless, he is closely related.) Because he had attended an illegal assembly on February 26, 1686, he was condemned to the galleys for three years. He died in a hospital by late December, but did so "persevering." No Catholic last rites for a Roque! Sadly, one source which offers physical descriptions has all the fields garbled. Inasmuch as "Huguenot convicts represented less than 5 percent of the total number . . . [and] the monarchy had plenty of convicts to man its galley ships . . . galley sentences for religion’s sake were . . . ‘selective repression,’" intended for "particularly harsh and uncommon punishment." The same date that sentence was passed on Henri, April 3, 1686, it was ordered that the home of his brother, Jean Roques, whom they did not have in custody, should be razed. It appears that this Jean had accompanied Vivent again to a March 10 meeting in a valley between Peyrolles and Valmy.

Our reference point returns to Charles’ wife, Jeanne Roque. As resistance in Languedoc persisted into late 1686, there was a call for 300 of the most obstinate to be deported to the Caribbean islands. (Yes, the conditions were punishment in those days.) Preparations were made for intake at Aigues-Mortes. During that year, 58-year-old merchant Jean Roque, this one Jeanne’s father, of Frechaussel at LaSalle, was committed to the Tower of Constance in Aigues-Mortes. Common prisoners were placed in worse conditions toward the bottom. He died soon afterward.

In his history of that accursed tower, Bost refers to two sisters whose "fate was especially moving." One, Louise Guion, was the wife of the Pierre Durand whom I’ve already discussed. He had attempted to leave the kingdom with his wife and two daughters. They were arrested at Dijon, and on March 10, 1687, he was first condemned to the galleys. On account of his being too old to row, he was simply deported to the French colonies, where he died in 1690. Mrs. Durand spent time at the Tower of Constance and was then moved to the Queen’s Tower at Montpellier, where she was placed in solitary confinement. During a violent fever, she relented, saying she would do anything to get out. Similarly, her daughters followed her lead in recanting before a priest.

The other sister, Marguerite Guion, was widow of the elder Jean Roque. She was confined in the Tower of Constance with children Jacques, Jean, Jeanne (noted to be wife of Charles LaPierre, who had become a preacher), Isabeau, and Marthe. 15-year-old Jacques perished. Jean, however, succumbed to the trials and renounced his religion. He would be the only survivor in an "annihilated" family, fleeing to Switzerland the next year with the remaining Durands. A source which pleasingly praises the martyrs’ crowns earned by Jean the father and Jacques, and so forth, states the younger Jean’s first place of refuge as Brandenburg, a reasonable destination on account of the Edict of Potsdam, but this source is not entirely accurate in every particular, as it claims Jean refused abjuration. A more reliable record places some of them in Magdeburg. On November 8, 1691, Jeanne Durand, daughter "of the late Pierre Durand, bourgeois de La Salle, and Louise Guion," married Pastor Charles Flavard of Anduze, son of "Etienne Flavard, bourgeois d’Anduze, and the late Marguerite Vallette." One distraught mother brought up that she’d been under the impression he was going to marry her daughter.

Since Marguerite Guion Roque and her three daughters remained firm in their contrary opinion, they were marked for deportation. This was reserved expressly for "the more obstinate," those who were "potential leaders" and "hopelessly impervious to conversion." Fewer than 430 Huguenots were transported in this manner in the years 1687 and 1688. There is a surprising amount of detail available about the final voyage of the Notre-Dame de Bonne Esperance. The prisoners were put aboard, separated into men’s and women’s cabins, on March 8, 1687, but did not disembark from Marseilles for Martinique until the 12th. Cramped conditions were so bad that during storms, those who couldn’t move would be covered with water, and there were other indescribable inconveniences. 17-year-old Marthe died from an illness that was devastating the ship at this time. "Horrific" living conditions on transport ships caused an average death rate of 25 percent. Still, victims of the African slave trade could complain of worse.

The ship struck a rock and foundered during the night between May 18 and 19, 1687. No one could find the key to the women’s quarters and it took too long to break the door down with axes. Water had been pouring in from all sides. Seeing this, the women had prepared to die by singing psalms, praying, embracing each other, and commending themselves to God. Very few left this watery tomb. The eyewitness, Etienne Serres, who heard a description of the widow of Roque of La Salle’s final moments, only named four women who were saved from the shipwreck. In recounting these events, he said those who drowned were all women who made the trip voluntarily and could never be forced against their conscience, even unto death. While Serres was floating on a plank awaiting rescue, the ship’s most Catholically eminent chaplain called out for his conversion, considering that they were both so near death. He replied, "Can you really think I want to forget God in the time that I must prepare myself to go to him? How can you believe I want to make a faux pas when I’m going to finish my course?" etc. The chaplain begged him to say no more.

Back on the mainland, Jean Roques, their cousin and a bodyguard/preacher, was now in league with an old soldier, also a lay preacher, from LaSalle named Jean Manoel. Without explanation, it is said that Manoel also knew LaPierre. The tough old man was arrested first and already interrogated before they finally caught Roques in a secret vault at Jean Bourdarier’s home at St. Croix on June 19, 1687, which was entered through the stables. This, too, was ordered razed. Roques was imprisoned at Nimes. At the time of arrest, he had a fragment of a self-composed sermon and copies of some religious literature on him. When confronted during interrogation with his declaration of living and dying a Protestant, "he persisted in that sentiment."

Manoel and Roques were hanged at Nimes on the same day, June 26. One of the executioners slapped Manoel (who went first) twenty times. None present, including Jesuits, made a move to halt this abuse. Manoel ascended the platform with composure. He prayed for those who killed him, urging the judges and other prosecutors "to no longer make war with God." It is said, in the best translation I can manage myself, that "Jean Roques died with the same consistency. At the time that he perished, faithful to the faith of his childhood, one of his brothers was in the galleys and his wife, two small children, his mother, and one of his sisters wandered around LaSalle, in the woods." The 30-year-old martyr "kept his oath."

What of Roques’ confiscated effects? He had informed his persecutors that he intended to send one as a letter to Montpellier and Nimes. In one, initially referring to the error and idolatry around them, he recalled the suffering "of those [who] at the expense of their property and their lives, make every effort . . . to move those who, unfortunately, by timidity and cowardice have horribly abandoned the doctrine of God and the prophets and apostles." Bost made a point of reminding the reader of his wandering family members, and that his home was gone. Roques continued, with apparent allusion to Hebrews 11:36-38, "we suffer every day so faithfully, some in prison, the others in the galleys, the others as exiles, . . . in the mountains, in caves, holes in the ground, in the remotest places . . . [because of] men[‘s] rage. . . . I can join this number, with my family scattered. . . . There is no cruelty exercised against us, . . . . [of which the] people in this place are not guilty, and especially those who exercise justice and police . . . . [who] persecute so cruelly in making war against Jesus Christ. . . . We . . . pray to God to have mercy and give them true repentance . . . ."

Bost pleasantly observes of the sermon, "a warning of a peasant of the Cevennes to the urban plain," that we may "savor his naivete and childlike confidence." What I can gather from the text:

My dear brothers and sisters, it is with regret that I . . . see our misfortune, and when I consider the greatness of our calling[?] and perseverance . . . , I can not help but sigh, seeing the threats that God makes against . . . sins, . . . because God says there is no peace for the wicked it must necessarily [follow] or [else repent]. . . . God does not want the death of the sinner, but his life. The good God punishes us not to lose us, but to save us. . . . It is time that you convert, and why will you die o house of Israel? Today . . . [change?] your hearts, lest God swear in his wrath that you will not enter into his rest. . . . [Consider?], you ungrateful people, after God had reformed the Church by . . . love and His omnipotence, and it has cost so much blood and . . . for the happy Reformation . . . you have cowardly abandoned. . . . [This] is the example of a wise physician who probes the wound to the bottom and does not flatter, so that the remedies make greater impression. I wish you would know that you are in poor condition, [which] you [may] lift quickly by living holy repentance, since God threatens . . . to throw in . . . conviction all those who are found mated with Babylon . . . .

The Abbe Rouquette, who interrogated Roques, evidently concluded that his soul was "religiously empty" or some such thing, all the more difficult to believe, Bost adds, when picturing the captive singing verses from a rendition of Psalm 25 which he was carrying, to a melody that he loved:

Dieu seul est la droite voie
Et nous conduit par la main;
Au pecheur qui se fourvoie
Il montre le droit chemin.
Pour le servir il fait choix
Des humbles dans leur misere;
Il fait connaitre ses lois
A tous les coeurs debonnaires.

O Dieu, garantis ma vie
Contre tant de conjures
J’espere, malgre l’envie
De voir mes jours assures.
Que ma seule integrite
Soit ma garde et ma defense;
D’Israel, par ta bonte,
Fais moi voir la delivrance!

All the while, LaPierre’s friend Vivent was proving worse than a nuisance to Monsieur Baville, the intendant of Languedoc, who had put out bounty notices already by 1686. In spite of a short, slim, and knock-kneed (from a childhood injury) appearance, his reputation as a "guerilla fighter" grew impressively. He insisted on guards over his assemblies. A spy passed along the word that this man had "the heart of a lion." Throughout the summer of 1686, he had many scrapes and escapes. After some prisoners were taken from one of his meetings, he counterattacked with 30 companions, ingeniously tricking the foe into believing he had cannon when he only had tree trunks, and freed his friends.

So eager was Baville for this to cease that he cut a deal with Vivent. In return for safe passage abroad for himself and 270 others, they would stop all efforts at resistance. One may well wonder at Vivent’s "naively" supplying a list of names and basic identification, which Baville would later put to good use. Only three down from Vivent, who headed the list, was Charles Lapierre, shoemaker of Lasalle, 30 years old. The king’s men made annotations in the margin, and it didn’t escape their notice that he was a predicant, or that the last name in the first group was the widow of the hanged Jean Roques.

At Baville’s insistence, the 270 were broken into three parties. Things went terribly wrong as the first group of about 45 departed. Instead of being directed the short way to Geneva, they were sent across the border toward Spain in August 1687. This was in the hopes of dispersal and other difficulties attendant to such hostile terrain/population. One writer attributes their collective escape to Vivent’s energies. Thus LaPierre was spirited out of the country that had severed his wife’s entire family from him. A small second group also managed to get out. However, with full duplicity, Baville closed his trap on the remaining 203. These victims, including Vivent’s wife and brother, were shipped to the West Indies.

Baville had what he wanted. "Lower Languedoc and the Cevennes were empty of preachers that had . . . risen against soldiers or missionaries of the king," culminating in the exile of many predicants, including Vivent and Lapierre. The unhappy Vivent spent his time in Amsterdam recalling the broken agreement, understandably a bit peeved. He was certainly not idle. He took up with "the Huguenot firebrand," Pastor Pierre Jurieu. At some point, he arranged with William of Orange, future king of England (Glorious Revolution of 1688), to serve as a secret agent to stir up rebellion in the French homeland. LaPierre met with Jurieu and then went on to Berlin.

At this crossroads, Charles LaPierre now had complete freedom of choice. His son—probably the only surviving family member—was scarcely 8 years old. Would he despair listlessly, even with a child to raise, or would he rise to the measure of the truth for which his beloved companion died? What sort of man did Jeanne Roque—whose life and death argue for one of the only good reasons I’ve ever heard for a mother to voluntarily absent herself from the home—marry? Baville’s wanted posters in 1687 described him as "of small size, blond and flat hair, round face and quite white, a little pockmarked, small, grey eyes, rather large and broad nose, and dirty teeth." Okay, you try maintaining dental hygiene as a seventeenth-century Frenchman, especially one without a home for two years. That aside, he obviously wouldn’t win any beauty contests, though the physical descriptions were almost universally unflattering, for the eyes of the beholders were very jaded. However, Brousson himself described LaPierre as leading "a pure and holy life, full of zeal and courage, and well versed in the divine scriptures."

Evidently LaPierre, of his own volition, expressed a desire to Minister Gautier in Berlin that he should return to France and preach. Walter approved of this zeal. LaPierre spontaneously passed back into Holland in 1689, where Jurieu also persuaded him to follow this prompting. Brousson had independently begun urging those who could teach to re-enter the embattled country and rekindle the dying light. In July 1689, eight or nine pastors or predicants (basically, pseudo-pastors, as they had no formal training) were poised at the border between Switzerland and France, prepared to face certain death. They divided into companionships, LaPierre taking a man named Serein with him from Geneva. Brousson and Vivent were among them. (Click here for a convenient, only slightly overwrought, English version of the immediately preceding events.) These unusual missionary efforts were to be conducted in guerilla-like fashion, dividing and regrouping whenever possible or necessary. They did not expect to stay off the radar; their only hope was to perform good labors quickly and disappear even faster.

It was only a matter of weeks before the lieutenant-general of the king’s armies in Languedoc had issued a large award for Vivent, dead or alive, with smaller individual sums for seven colleagues (omitting Brousson, but including LaPierre). He accused Vivent of reneging on the kingdom’s goodness in pardoning him and assisting him out of the country. Anyone who helped these disrupters of the public peace would be treated as accomplices and see the destruction of their home. One "illegal assembly" of Cevennolese at Hospitalet in September 1689 heard sermons first from Vivent and Lapierre, and then Brousson. Throughout the evening, the numbers grew to nearly a hundred, largely composed of men with contraband weapons. Vivent and all his companions were noted to have about a dozen rifles and some pistols.

LaPierre’s whereabouts are understandably difficult to track during these years; otherwise, Baville would have bagged him. During that trial of fire, one after another of the companions was seized and executed horribly. One prisoner, put to the question, named La Pierre among five preachers, the others having fled or been killed. When asked how they survived, he replied it was in God’s hands. When asked again who gave them bread and meat, he said, "those whose hearts God has touched."

LaPierre wintered with a few near Saint-Andre de Valborgue while Vivent went into a northern, Catholic region. At another time, he passed back through Vigan in company with Quest and La Porte. More placards were posted, promising rewards for the capture of any preachers. Throughout 1690 and 1691, they continued to deliver sermons, baptize, and give the sacrament. Brousson laid his hands on LaPierre at Uzes in 1690, in his belief conferring jealously guarded authority (he had twice acquired from the theological elite in exile) which placed one somewhere above "predicant" status. LaPierre "worked" the entire plain of Saint Felix, where he encountered a new companion (Etienne Bon), who went by the name of La Victoire. They moved on to Valestaliere, where LaPierre apparently fell ill. Upon his recovery, sharing a desire to preach "to the valley where he was born," they held one of the larger meetings (in October 1691) at Monoblet near LaSalle. Listeners came from Lasalle, Monoblet, Colognac, Dufort, and Saint-Hippolyte, enjoying a sermon from Vivent, another from Lapierre, and then the sacrament. Vivent’s "troop" joined up with Laporte’s and Lapierre’s (he was at the head of Villemejeanne, La Victoire, and La Rose, alias for Mr. Julien) on the night of November 7 for a cave meeting; LaPierre and Laporte departed on foot. They later reconvened, with new fugitives, in the woods of Saint Felix.

A round of new arrests hit LaSalle. Seemingly frightened at the statistics they were uncovering, in what had been believed a relatively pacified province, efforts were redoubled. LaPierre took a man from the Monoblet audience, by the name of Villeneuve, and led eighteen men to the rescue of prisoners along the road between LaSalle and Saint-Hippolyte.

Initial stunning blows against the entrenched persecutors would see rapid and steady reversals in 1692. LaPierre remained in the vicinity of Nimes. In late November 1691, Guillaume Fraissinet of Caderle had been arrested with his wife, Jeanne Roques, another sister of the Jean who had been hanged. His wife, trapped in LaSalle, had been able to escape (corresponding with LaPierre’s rescue operation?), but was recaptured a month later. The Fraissinets were imprisoned at Saint-Hippolyte, along with the newly taken widow of Antoine Roques, referred to much earlier. Madame Roques was now 80 years old and had wandered since 1686. Her longtime companion, daughter Marguerite, had rather sharply remarked that she would abandon her if she changed religion. Marguerite was separately arrested at Bussas in August 1691 and taken to the castle at Sommieres.

At any rate, the year 1692 opens with proceedings against the venerable old widow Roques. "Intractably," she refused to become a Catholic or in any way be taught that it was a change for good with religion, adding that her son Jean (the hanged one) had served as an example for the whole family. (I quote the philosopher Boethius: "I have never been moved from justice to injustice by anything.") She also remained steadfast, she said, for her daughter’s sake. That February, Vivent was shot and killed after troops surprised him at his hideout. Increasing desperation had led to assassination attempts, implicating several of Vivent’s companions, who distanced themselves somewhat thereafter from his "violence." LaPierre was strongly accused by Baville, in partnership with two others, for the death of a Captain Bres. (On account of additional deaths of two bishops, he’d increased the price on Brousson and several others, including LaPierre, as "murderers and assassins." Very similar accusations were leveled at Joseph Smith and the Missouri Saints. It often takes one to think someone else is one! As President Taylor observed, many measure others by the foulness of their own hearts.) This was not helped by LaPierre’s cold reaction that "a persecutor of the church should not be spared." One man who was associated with Vivent at his death later made reference to the sword and pistol which LaPierre owned. Oh, what I’d give for the copy one captive had of a sermon written by LaPierre, or his weaponry!

Somehow, weighing the lives already lost and that it was an uneven war of extirpation involving faith, families, and freedom, I think a lot of my own compunctions disappear in the balance. What would the moral imperative be if you stood midway or two thirds of the way down a line of people with their cheek turned in one direction, and witnessed every single one of them before you shot in turn? Is there responsibility toward those who come after you, if you are in a position to take any sort of action? Believe it or not, this is why I have cheered the Warsaw Ghetto uprising, wherein no more than a thousand starved, under-equipped, largely untrained resisters held off at least twice their number in special German units for nearly a month. Taking a stand, even in the face of impossible odds, is in and of itself a way under the heavens to combat evil and rid your garments of that generation’s sins. Anyway, complacency is not a word often tossed in the direction of my family members.

LaPierre and La Jeunesse continued to minister to many around Nimes into 1693. Brousson was at Uzes, and LaPierre eventually approached that city in his labors. One weaver of Uzes was condemned who had guided LaPierre. Our good man Charles was now named in every recitation of a dwindling list of preachers. Apparently around this time he was drawn ever more closely to Brousson. The small band of brave men dwelt together in love. Another preacher taken by Baville refused to inform on those still at liberty, saying that nothing could move him to harm his brothers. It was somewhat anomalous when Quest hinted in earlier correspondence to Lapierre that the latter had absconded with one of his prized manuscripts. Lapierre’s response is his only preserved letter. In poorly translated part:

Mr. and honored brother, Having received [your letter] and seen by the reproaches you made of me without being informed of the things [of which] you accuse me, I beg you believe that I am not a man guilty of that [with which] you accuse me. . . . I should knock down [a tendency to claim?] all the qualities of perfection, which I love more than my own life because I am not a man to deny the truth. . . . I assure you with sincerity that I never took a book in Noguier. . . . God forbid that I make profit of damage to my brother. . . . I assure you that I have particular esteem for you, knowing your zeal and piety; and the care you take for the edification of our brothers greatly increases the love I have for you. . . . I beg [you to consult?] with our brother Francois [Vivent] [over] the manner that I have [toward] you. . . . I want to have the honor to see you, for me to justify my fidelity. Having written in haste I do not [cover] everything as I could wish. . . . Please, believe me one of your servants, without reservation, [and] make sure that I have the honor to see you. . . . C. Lapierre

In September 1694, he taught at Aigremont. He then administered the sacrament and delivered some sermons at a general synod held in Montpellier around Christmas. Only two of the remaining preachers failed to attend this secret meeting with at least 150 attendees. A few months later, he had momentarily withdrawn into the mountains of Castrais. We know that in 1695 he was at Graissessac, producing a "harvest" that David Gazan (code name La Jeunesse) subsequently took up. That October, he preached in the woods of Roc de Brezes, near Laucane, before about 200 people. A witness described him as blinking when he spoke, of medium stature, and with chestnut-colored hair, perhaps 45 years old. His text: "The Lord will extend His arm to save His people, and the people will give shouts of joy."

Moving to Bas-Languedoc from Bedarieux, he left an indelible impression on Marc Triol of Graissessac, who later recounted the passage of "that certain Monsieur Lapierre" in 1732. His audience must have included many who had forsaken their faith under pressure. "He touched many, representing why they had abandoned the Lord, which produced many tears." Bost then incites my curiosity, "We know already, from Baron Fontarèches, with what power Lapierre stirred hearts." The authorities caught up with Henri Pourtal in 1696, and there is only one known meeting subsequently that year, near Saint-Laurent d’Aigouze a few days before Christmas. The preacher and the crowd were not dispersed by a downpour, and it was LaPierre, returned to Haut-Languedoc. (Actually, not much deterred these diligent folk. One 18-year-old described a separate meeting held by Brousson, interrupted by the king’s men, as the sounded warning left too little time. Although Brousson and many others made good their escape, the boy’s father was killed, his brother was shot in the chest, and his sister was escorted to the Tower of Constance. "Nonetheless, two weeks later, he and his mother attended yet another nearby assembly.") LaPierre was lodging with a certain Martin, and remained in the area, near Castres, into 1697 with Gazan.

They were known to preach in June and July at Les Fargues and the Combelegarde of Metairie. On August 10, at Roc des Peiroulets in the woods of Montagnol, Lapierre taught from Isaiah 53:11-12, dressed in gray homespun. This time his age was estimated at 40. Some women gave him six shirts of Rouen fabric. He was spotted again during the night between September 25 and 26, labeled as "Mr. Lapierre, Lasalle," preaching in Galibert’s barn at Calmon on the plain of Mazamet. 87 people "who had not abjured," were allowed to take communion. After another assembly at Saint-Amans Villemagne at the end of December, Lapierre returned to Bas-Languedoc while Gazan made his way to Switzerland, where he was by early February 1698.

1698 was the fateful year. Brousson did not see LaPierre and drew the conclusion that he, too, had left the country. Bost paints the mournful scene: "Between les Causses and the Sea, we have seen so many preachers come and go, there only remained Roman, Lapierre, Olivier, and Brousson." An informant by the name of Quesnot, speaking of his acquaintances in the mountains, says that Lapierre "often changes place, and has almost no home." (This kind of helps one understand Matt. 8:20 more fully, in conjunction with 10:16-42.) There is one more interesting twist, which reveals the manner of young Jean LaPierre’s upbringing: "He has a son he is training to be a minister, he is sent first to one place, sometimes another." He accurately places the boy’s age around 16 to 17.

On November 4, 1698, Claude Brousson, the real mind behind the resistance, was strangled to death on the wheel. No one denied the brave manner of his death, and Utt closes that chapter with striking words from Baville’s correspondence regarding the undying courage of those he pursued so relentlessly: "If the God that these people serve is the same one that we adore, we risk being very disappointed some day." In his final days, Brousson had only rattled off the names of companions who’d already been immolated. Gazan and Lapierre’s names alone came up, purely because he believed they were out of the country already. In fact, three remained alive in the country: Lapierre, Olivier, and Roman.

Not long afterward, LaPierre finally left France for good. Shortly after his departure, an irrepressible nation of Cevennes peasantry rose up in the War of the Camisards. With their mobility, innovation, and adaptability, they fought the king’s forces to a standstill for years. They still excite the admiration of special operations studies today, in their inurement to extreme conditions and facility for reducing enemy forces which vastly outnumbered and outgunned them.

By November 1701, entitled to retirement from the scene of action, LaPierre was established as a minister in London, England, at the French Chapel of Spring Gardens, known as the Little Savoye. At that date, he married another refugee, with whom he had two more children. Their boy later crossed the English Channel before marrying; one of his direct male descendants was in the resistance movement during the Nazi invasion of the Netherlands, and spent time in a concentration camp.

In 1718, Charles was an old pensioner, still lecturer at the Little Savoy(e). The record says that he was "with Mr. Brousson when broken on the wheel." Bost ponders whether that merely means still in the preaching service or he descended to Montpellier "to witness the death of his master and illustrious friend." LaPierre was succeeded in his post, one conjectures posthumously, in 1722. Yet the wily, untraceable old fighter could just as easily have joined his younger son in continental Europe. Maybe he still traipses the earth, refusing to die!

Denouement
On August 8, 1701, Jean LaPierre had entered Trinity College in Dublin, paying his own expenses and receiving his Bachelor of Arts in 1706. He soon received a license from the Archbishop of Dublin to serve as schoolmaster in the city. On February 23, 1707, the Bishop of London ordained him a priest. There are many ironies to his life, not the least of which was his taking Anglican orders, a delicate subject for most Huguenot histories. Still another is expressed in April 1719 in another country, when, after some French Catholics left Mobile in Louisiana territory for South Carolina, LaPierre exulted that he’d witnessed the conversion of "Roman Catholicks" with "publick abjuration of Popery." Here was a taste of their own medicine, indeed, for the British colonies, excepting Maryland, wouldn’t allow Catholicism to take root.

On February 17, 1708, Jean and his wife Susanne traveled to the Little Savoy from their parish of St. James, Westminster, to have Charles and his second wife serve as sponsors for his firstborn, named Jeanne, presumably for Jean’s martyred mother. Only one week later, he departed for foreign shores. 20 pounds were paid by the British government for ministerial passage. Four months later, Jean, his blind wife, and "their little girl" arrived in an impoverished state. Hirsch provides plenty of pitiful pathos about what it was like to forge into the frontier with a full, French family:

A letter of his, dated January 1, 1725-6, leaves no misgiving about the grim shadows that lay across his way, even on that New Year’s day. There is reference to his family, who "are a great charge" to him, for there are "five small children." There is no lament recorded in those words, they are merely a matter-of-fact statement. But there was a wife as well, "who had lost her eyesight before their departure from England." Does not one’s fancy naturally linger in that household, where a mother gropes her way amid the manifold duties of her home, or sits helplessly among the cares, with the full weight of her own handicap and of the family’s poverty pressing down upon her.

He immediately assumed care of the St. Denis parish in South Carolina. For years he would operate here, and within "other vacant English parishes at convenient intervals." (He was pastor at Charleston’s French Church in partnership with Boisseau and L’Escot in 1712-1713, and possibly alone in 1728 just before his move to Cape Fear, or New Hanover, in North Carolina.) It was in this Orange Quarter of South Carolina that his second daughter, Martha (undoubtedly named after his young martyred aunt Marthe Roque), was born. She is both my 6th great-grandmother and 7th great-grandmother.

It is curious that an early acquaintance commented that "his English is not only accurate but adept in the use of colloquialisms, so one would guess that he left his native land fairly early in life," as the governor of North Carolina commented of his sadly spent condition in the 1750s that it was largely "by reason of his foreign Dialect and his age." St. Denis was created as a distinct parish "for a time ‘till ye present inhabitants or their children attain the English tongue.’" In a 1733 letter, one of several (of which this is a different example), LaPierre himself informs us that his instructions from Bishop Compton of London were to serve "until the death of the old settlers who did not understand the English Tongue." He became an assistant to Rev. Has(s)ell in the neighboring parish of St. Thomas, in his own words, "hoping of the two nations to make but one and the same people."

Van Ruymbeke introduces us to LaPierre’s first days in America, utilizing a contemporary resident’s letters in the first description:

Apparently they were not disappointed by their minister’s sermons, which "surpassed their hopes," as LaPierre revealed himself to be "a good theologian," expounding on biblical texts "methodically and in a charming manner with his expressions, his voice, and hands" so that "the entire assembly was extremely edified." Within a few weeks LaPierre had won "the heart and affection of his church," and his parishioners were so eager "to bring him what is necessary to life [that soon] he was agreeably overwhelmed with an abundance of goods." In no time LaPierre was "admired by the English as much as by the French" and was heralded as "the most skilful preacher in the French language who ever came to this land of Caroline." This reputation is supported by Thomas Hasell, pastor at St. Thomas and formerly a fellow student of LaPierre’s at "l’academie de Dublin," who remembered him as "the most recommendable of all the students for his good behaviour having never been censured."

The honeymoon period of LaPierre’s ministry, however, did not last long and was the prelude to more than a decade of bitter conflict.

In a nutshell, LaPierre was ever and anon stuck with the conformist, Calvinist desires of his parishioners and very exacting, sometimes sharply contradictory, orders from the Church of England under whose sovereignty he now served. He faced the severe loneliness of never pleasing anyone, almost fitting and to be anticipated once one commences to compromise. His personal inclinations were still toward Calvinist practices in private. Prior to ordination, he had served wholly French churches. The Anglican representative in America, in a confusing letter, first stated that LaPierre had not been "well satisfied" with criticism that he must enforce strict Anglicanism but that he "has been just to his Engagements ever since." Then Commissary Johnston proceeded to lay the difficulties at his feet again, as due to a "warm & indiscreet temper," and lastly, only subtly, defended him as "plagu’d by those headstrong fools" in his parish.

Van Ruymbeke sympathized: "Clearly, the quickest way out of the crisis would have been for Johnston to support LaPierre openly while reprimanding him in private. Instead, by blaming the French minister and siding with his factious flock, the commissary not only further undermined LaPierre’s legitimacy among them but also, somewhat ironically, considerably weakened the local Anglican establishment in the eyes of its Huguenot opponents. . . . The French ministers, assigned to newly and imperfectly conformed Huguenot-Anglican parishes, were often caught between (no pun on LaPierre’s surname intended) a rock and a hard place." In dealing with many intransigent people, some with rather wild notions, LaPierre had to combat a rise in millenarian beliefs. To correct one misconception regarding the day of the Sabbath, "LaPierre, ‘having in [Carolina] no Book upon this Subject,’ composed a pamphlet entitled The Vindication of ye Christian Sabbath. This document has not survived and it is not known whether anyone ever read it, but it obviously had no influence whatsoever on the course of events."

The next time a commissary, this one by the name of Garden, denounced LaPierre, it was for actually pleasing his constituents. Upon receiving a scurrilous, threatening letter, John felt that his hand was forced, when he otherwise "would have made . . . all reasonable satisfaction in a meeting of ye clergy as our former custom was, without any need troubling [His] Lordship," so he wrote the Bishop of London, embedding the nasty correspondence from Garden. This embarrassment was an odd echo of a letter that his father had once written. Not surprisingly, LaPierre seized upon the opportunity to move north, where he eventually served as chaplain to the North Carolina General Assembly at New Bern, also officiating in Christ Church there. His daughter, Martha, married Benjamin Fordham, Sr., an officer therein, who served as sergeant at arms. This Benjamin was also a soldier during the French and Indian War. Their son, Benjamin, Jr., served in the American Revolution (on the colonists’ side, naturally). From him, the bloodline divides three ways before converging again.

By some remarkable happenstance, this family married into the Swinson line for three successive generations, each one being too distantly related to be aware of the consanguinity. (The Swinsons, who arrived in Virginia around 1675, probably from Lincolnshire, are warlike as far back as I can trace them. They never "shun the fight.") The first descendant of these fighters and martyrs to enter the direct patrilineal family became a widow to one of the five out of six Swinson boys who died, between Vicksburg and Gettysburg, in the Civil War; the last became mother to five Swinson boys who fought through World War II and the Korean conflict. While the next generation married the most refined woman I think the Swinsons have ever seen, whose father was the apogee of moral character, she actually brought an infusion of some truly fighting Scotch-Irish, as well as the Hardy line through which we’re related to General Douglas MacArthur. Last and certainly not least, my mother is descended from a vast body of Austro-Germans who freely confessed their Lutheran faith to accept exile from the archdiocese of Salzburg in 1731, as well as another Huguenot line which left France during the years of declining rights presaging the Revocation (following the associated links—which improperly confound the authorship of a pamphlet, however—shows their connection to yet another Huguenot family of long standing in the British Isles). And this is merely to cite prominent examples.

I can’t refrain from inserting hymnal accompaniment from my dear familial German refugees, as a companion piece to Roques’:

Ein Pilgrim bin ich auch nunmehr, muss reisen fremde Strassen,

drum bitt ich dich, mein Gott und Herr, du wollst mich nicht verlassen.

Ach steh mir bei, du starker Gott, dir hab ich mich ergeben,

verlass mich nicht in meiner Not, wanńs kosten soll mein Leben.

Den Glauben hab ich frei bekennt, des darf ich mich nicht schämen.

Ob man mich einen Ketzer nennt und tut miŕs Leben nehmen.

I’m beginning to see why I often hear the echoes of all the plaintively religious cries of forebears from many climes—also why there’s a near-perpetual martial drumbeat in my mind. I believe I better comprehend my appreciation for men of David W. Patten’s stature. I’m informed still further why the Terminator franchise’s scenery (even if largely off limits on account of prior movies’ ratings) speaks to me on so many levels. Charles LaPierre lived a lot like John Connor. I’m very selective in my emulation, and I have found many new, amazing friends beyond of late. Even friends (here) have informed me that my religiosity is practically "militant." This mortal experience is, to my mind, little more nor less than continuing to wage the war that Satan already brought against his brethren. "He maketh war with the saints of God, and encompasseth them round about" (D&C 76:29). There is no room for compromise, and repentance is our only hope of resistance.

Elder Ballard said, "We must be just as dedicated, effective, and determined in our efforts to live the gospel as [Satan] is in his efforts to destroy it—and us" (Ensign, May 1999, 86). That is a matter of building our store of confrontational tactics and outmaneuvering strategy. President Young remarked that "Christ will never cease the warfare, until he destroys death and him that hath the power of it" (JD, 4:31), and has reminded us that "the men and women, who desire to obtain seats in the celestial kingdom, will find that they must battle every day" (Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Brigham Young, 294).

There’s a reason I’ve thought of "valiant in the testimony of Jesus" as demanding no reinforcements other than the knowledge that one has zealously sought to be on His side. A valiant individual will hold the line, though they stand alone in it! How can we effectively tell Satan to get behind us (see Matt. 16:23) when we cannot boldly, nobly, and independently withstand "the hands of the servants of Satan that do uphold his work" (D&C 10:5), when we fear man more than God, that is, "savourest not the things of God, but those that be of men" (Matt. 16:23, again)?

Nor can I bear, in physical terms, to see oppression of the innocent. With me it is decidedly not Nemo me lacessit impune, but something rather more like (?) Nemo lacessit alius impune.

What I’m learning about Charles LaPierre is the personification of many strong emotions I’ve been unable to satisfactorily explain my entire life. I don’t want to disappoint those who have gone before in facing that which lies ahead. In a positive assertion of the matter, I feel that I have a remarkable, unexpected, additional source of strength from those who successfully bore their battle, Christ having already won the only one about which there could ever have been any true difficulty.

SOME WORKS CONSULTED
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Bost, Charles. Les Martyrs d’Aigues-Mortes. Paris: Editions de la Cause, 1922.

Bost, Charles. Les Predicants des Cevennes et du Bas-Languedoc, 1684-1700. 2 vols. Paris: Libraire ancienne Honore Champion, Editeur, 1912.

Bulletin Historique et litteraire, Vol. 49, Societe de l’histoire du protestantisme francais. Paris: 1900. p. 636

Cahiers du Centre de Genealogie Protestante, Paris, 1984, vol. 3., no. 6, 316, 326-327.

Claude Jamier: Forcat, Deporte & Naufrage, http://generoyer.free.fr/H-ClaudeJAMIER.htm

Fothergill, Gerald. A List of Emigrant Ministers to America, 1690-1811. London: Elliot Stock, 1904, 40.

Gaultier, Francoise. Histoire Apologetique, ou Defense des Libertez des Eglises Reformees de France. Amsterdam, 1688. p. 149

Hirsch, Arthur H. The Huguenots of Colonial South Carolina. Columbia: University of South Carolina Press, 1999.

LaSalle, France, Reformed Church parish registers, 1561-1685, Salt Lake Family History Library microfilms 0687553-4

Lenoir County Historical Association. The Heritage of Lenoir County. Winston-Salem: Hunter Publishing Company, 1981.

"Letters from North and South Carolina to England regarding the conditions of the Church of England, 1712-1781." Raleigh: North Carolina Department of Archives and History, 1960. Salt Lake Family History Library microfilm 0239273

Minet, William and Susan Minet. Registres des Eglises de la Savoye de Spring Gardens et des Grecs, 1684-1900. London: The Huguenot Society of London, 1912.

Onslow County Historical Society. The Heritage of Onslow County. Winston-Salem: Hunter Publishing Company, 1983.

Proceedings of the Huguenot Society of London, 1:325-327; 2:306-307; 8:23; 19:171, 183.

Tollen, Henri. Geschichte der Französischen Colonie von Magdeburg. Halle: Verlag von Max Niemeyer, 1887. p. 363

Transactions of the Huguenot Society of South Carolina, No. 85. Charleston, SC, 1980. pp. 56-58

Utt, Walter C. and Brian E. Strayer. The Bellicose Dove: Claude Brousson and Protestant Resistance to Louis XIV, 1647-1698. Brighton, U.K.: Sussex Academic Press, 2003.

Van Ruymbeke, Bertrand. From New Babylon to New Eden: The Huguenots and Their Migration to Colonial South Carolina. Columbia: University of South Carolina Press, 2006.

Wood, Lillian Fordham. "The Reverend John LaPierre." The Historical Magazine of the Protestant Episcopal Church, vol. XL, no. 4.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Of missed opportunities and determined disposition

Have you ever wondered how your life would have gone if you’d hooked up with someone in whom you were once interested? Don’t. What if heaven allowed you to follow such a path and only extricate yourself most painfully later, if at all? “All things have been done in the wisdom of him who knoweth all things” (2 Ne. 2:24; see Eph. 1:11). I just read where President Packer stated that those who wait for marriage may depend upon God’s just judgments, “mercy without limit, . . . power to compensate” (Mine Errand from the Lord, 265) in a situation that, even if lasting a lifetime, is nonetheless temporary (Ibid., 266). What he doesn’t say is that sometimes our temporarily prolonged singleness may even be a form of protection and an as-yet-unexplained manifestation of such mercy.

I, therefore, try to never have regrets. All of us might have acted/reacted differently over the course of our lives. If, however, we were keeping the commandments and situated where we did the best we knew how, I’m still confident that the Lord would have arranged companionship where He saw fit. Indeed, I’m inclined to believe that two very well suited individuals would almost find it impossible to stay away from each other if both were similarly devoted to the Lord. Hence, as one whose life has been largely bereft of the man’s prerogative to advance, I tend not to press the issue.

A recent plea of my heart came entirely unbidden, and I startled myself with the wisdom and honesty in it: “I need someone who’s making the same choices I am.” As I’ve stated many times in many forms, most of who I am today is the result of what I chose to do (even if not always entirely voluntarily) while others were doing something else. Never mind how peculiarly I turned out; this has proven a blessing in the ways that matter, even if it is all the more disadvantageous in seeking a partner.

I’m reminded of the last dance I ever attended, about which I blogged on April 6, 2008. Among my other reasons for explaining how I can’t help but be alienated, I pointed to one piece of Church guidance (Ensign, Dec. 2002, 51, at the end) that is, to me, sufficient cause—even if it stood alone—for questioning the majority of our cultural leanings. I confessed to my tendency to not join in the main activity, but in that blog I didn’t quote another portion of my journal entry: “So it is that out of several stakes, not a single lady had so much as passing interest in entering MY world, which admittedly stuck out like a sore thumb. . . . I’m left to ponder that my type must not be enduring such spectacles. . . . The final goal was met when a group of ward members walked up and realized where I had been. Whether for good or ill, in their opinion, they know that it’s being like others—and not altogether being WITH others—to which I am indifferent. They proved for the second occasion in these three weeks that they’re content to turn their backs on me and let me go off alone into a cold night.”

Also at that dance inside a church building: “I wandered around, only to find one cluster of youth playing cards. I suppressed saying, ‘Face cards in the church? I never thought I’d see the day.’ I talked briefly with a man who was wrapping up clerk affairs in an office.” In an April 28, 2008 blog, I also touched on my reasons for feeling as I do about face cards. (Again, a stance summarized in, yet anything but confined to, President Kimball’s expression in the October 1974 General Conference: “We hope faithful Latter-day Saints will not use the playing cards which are used for gambling, either with or without the gambling.”)

In all my years of young single adult involvement, virtually no one remotely in my age group has ever thought to ask me why I behave the way I do with regard to issues such as this. It concerns me that they may be overly reliant on the first second-hand source to which they could refer the question, rather than benefitting from years of study in the gospel. Certainly attunement to the Spirit is more likely to open one's heart. By and large, they don’t seem so concerned about learning every possible truth.

Rather than deciding it's fear of the correctness of my position, or blatant wicked assumption about my motives, I’ve preferred to think they’re simply uncaring about my viewpoint. Whether or not someone agrees with how I approach life, I think all would agree that I ought to be with a like-minded companion. I should add that there are plenty of negotiable categories and millions of things on which I have no opinion, and would likely submit to her opinion. This says nothing about the principle I've confided to others, that I wish I could find someone who understands well enough both where I'm coming from and where she's coming from, that I could actually trust her disagreement. I readily admit the possibility of my being wrong, but telling me that I'm weird or that "nobody does that" is no kind of rebuttal at all. It often speaks poorly for the populace.

I imparted counsel to one roommate that one shouldn't disclose too fully what they seek in a companion, for then a relationship may succumb to the temptation to pretend to be exactly that, or force a rushed "conversion" to a personality type that is not really them. Nobody decent wants a robot or a fake. Furthermore, not all of my differences from society are ethically grounded. To understand that would also require more vulnerable exposition than anyone has time for; just imagine a kid who got a C+ in 6th grade P.E. because he couldn't serve the volleyball over the net, or spent Junior Prom very sorrowfully at home in a body cast, and that's the smallest possible glimpse. All the same, it's useful additional training in seeking only the things of a better world. I like the idea of a companion who shares my bewilderment at desires to accommodate oneself to the world, but might amaze me with her abilities to administer to the world's spiritual needs. (Make me sweat to keep up, and strive to the utmost to feel like I come close to deserving her.)

One of the saddest feelings in all the world is that there's no one within sight whom you'd like to get to know better, yet it is almost invariable that acquaintance brings disappointment, for dating purposes, at any rate. I’m not giving up hope on those entirely uncontrolled incidents whereby people cross into one’s life. At the same time, I have to let go of any what-ifs pertaining to those that transpired in the past. I think of the other week, when I attempted to leave a ward date. On my way out of the Wilkinson Center ballroom area, I passed a table at which a dark-haired girl sat reading, with a striking mannerism about her. She looked up with the most pleasant smile; I would have loved to talk to her, but I thought that I had no idea how to strike up a conversation and I owed my roommate a ride home anyway. It also somehow didn’t seem appropriate right after leaving another “date” behind.

The Marriott Center offers good opportunity for an assemblage of choice people from all over the world. Shortly after I moved back into a Provo ward, I attended a regional conference there. I went amply early with a couple of church books and studied for something like an hour. After the conference had ended, a girl came up and introduced herself to me. She wanted to inform me how “impressed” she was by my demeanor. Perhaps it was my only recently escaping socially injurious circumstances, or her getting ready for a mission (to include that age factor), or inexperience generally, but I failed to request her number during that respectful conversation. This too I forced myself to shrug off, except for writing in my journal, “Sorry, Joanna from Arkansas.”

Omitting a number of similar encounters, I jump back many years to a time when I was paying the price for knowledge. As I’ve described it, it was clearly not a season for dating success. I felt that the Lord did not intend it at that time, and so I heeded the next call, spending marathon hours in the BYU library, studying Church publications. At times—like during the major dance events—I mentally, or sometimes literally, dropped to my knees with loneliness (knowing nothing at the time of how futile that was), only to rise again in quest of eternal things which are not only stored away for the resurrection, but have already served me (and others) in this life. Once I ignored my bleary-eyed late-night fatigue to push toward library closing time. A girl plopped down in the chair beside me to engage in very friendly conversation. She said, “I have this theory that redheads were more valiant in the pre-existence.” See what President Monson says about them. ;-) I don’t know exactly how to explain this, but I think I had difficulty shifting gears to allow for the fact that someone was deliberately talking to me. I pulled off a sociable nature, but I certainly didn’t extend myself and acquire the necessary gumption to investigate a potential relationship.

It’s not my intention to recount every such instance. I’ve also restricted it to those most applicable and within a dating audience. Older people approach me everywhere I go, with some of the oddest statements. It’s enough to know opportunities have arisen in the past and may well occur in the future. I’ll try to overcome my inherent weaknesses so that I’ll be ready and willing to do whatever it takes. I have no regrets!!!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

A society of insane sympathies

Okay, I had this nagging concern that the Ocean’s movies—besides being drenched with gambling culture—encouraged us to root for criminals. With the release of previews for Public Enemies (it’s R, anyway, folks), I’m thinking, “You can’t tell me they’re not giving Depp a very ‘cool’ image there as John Dillinger.” Then something clicked:

There is a deplorable tendency among the people of this nation to sympathize with murderers, bank defaulters, evil adventurers, and a hundred other classes of criminals who are at large or who have been arrested or convicted for breaking the law. Such a tendency is not alone manifest among the people of the various states and territories of our nation, it is also apparent among the Latter-day Saints. This sympathy for criminals is entirely abnormal, and has a tendency to lower and destroy the moral sentiment of any people who indulge in it. For a Latter-day Saint to sympathize either with crime or with criminals, is a burning shame, and it is high time that the teachers of the community should stem such tendency and inculcate a sentiment that would make it extremely abhorrent to commit crime. Young men may please God by thinking right, by acting right, by shunning, as they would destruction, not only every crime, but the spirit either to see or sympathize with the criminal, or to hear or read the details of his damnable acts. It is an old saying, that we are what we think; then, to be a good Latter-day Saint it is necessary to think pure thoughts, to imbibe pure ideas, and to let the mind dwell continually upon the noble things, and the good deeds, and the exalted thoughts of life, discarding all sympathy or interest for crime and criminals, and all thought of evil. The man or woman who will resort to the court room, who will visit criminals with flowers, who will read and constantly discuss every detail of crime, should be condemned, frowned upon, and their actions should be made detestable in the eyes of the pure in heart. When a murderer is condemned, he should be detested, dropped, and forgotten; and so also should criminals of other classes who sin grievously against law and the commandments of God. (Joseph F. Smith, Gospel Doctrine, 374-375)

President Smith also noted, “I wish . . . to say a word to guard the people from unwise sympathies. While we may have a great deal of love for our fellow beings, and especially for those who have been favored of the Lord in times past, we should exercise that love wisely. . . . It is impossible for me to sympathize with those who do wrong” (CD, 5:212).

As cheerful as the ever-widening spread of the balm of sympathy sounds, there are two flies in the ointment. First, there are few moral concepts as slippery as sympathy. At best, it substitutes indiscriminate niceness for goodness in human affairs. (Niceness is nice, but even a thief can be polite.) At worst, it embraces indiscrimination itself, and erases all boundaries between human beings and every other living thing. In trying to treat every living thing as part of one moral whole, it ends up inverting the entire moral order and the natural order along with it. The outcome is the animal rights activist who, overflowing with sympathy for the chimpanzee, destroys medical research clinics. (Benjamin Wiker, 10 Books That Screwed up the World and 5 Others That Didn't Help [Washington, D.C.: Regnery Publishing, Inc., 2008], 94)

A few years after President Smith, Elder Reed Smoot also commented on this disease:

There are other things, it seems to me, that are sapping the life, at least the spiritual life, of the people of the world, and our communities are affected, somewhat, with the same evil. I have reference to the maudlin, half insane sympathy for the murderer, the unnatural, and the wicked, the desire for sensationalism, the mad rush for pleasure, the desire to become one of the idle rich, or a determination to join the idle poor. I simply have to refer you to a case which has filled the magazines and the press not only in this country but all over the world, and, as far as I can estimate, if the space had been charged for by the daily papers of this country as they charge the business men for the space for advertising, it would amount to a hundred million dollars, or more. I have reference to the Thaw case. Who was Harry Thaw? A man reared in the lap of luxury, a debauchee, a murderer escaping the gallows on the plea of insanity, a man reared in a home where all the luxuries of wealth were given him, but devoid of everything that makes man what God intended him to be. Wasn’t it a spectacle to deplore to see the crowds following him from place to place, from jail to the auto, while he was in Canada; ovation after ovation was given him; women presented him with flowers on every possible occasion, and young girls not out of their teens, stood at the jail begging “Harry” to come to the bars that they might see him. Oh God, have mercy on such deluded people. I remember one case here in Utah when a murderer, sentenced to die, was sent flowers by some of the women of our state. Thank the Lord there were but a few so foolish. I take it that such action can only be indulged in by a person having a diseased mind. There is surely something wrong with them. I do know that there isn’t a spark of the Spirit of God in them. (CR, Oct. 1913, 94-95)

How can we account for this madness? Robert H. Bork wrote, “A violent man in prison will not shoot you, rape you, or crack your skull. There is no reason to be sentimental about a person who commits even one violent or serious crime. Violence is not inflicted through negligence or inadvertence. If the man who was sentenced to ten years served ten years, at least seventy-two people would be spared death, rape, or other serious injury” (Slouching Towards Gomorrah: Modern Liberalism and American Decline [New York, New York: ReganBooks, 1996], 165). One political commentator, whose name and affiliation will go unmentioned (I myself finding him a tad overbearing) gives credit to the conservative camp’s retained values in an accurate assessment: “The justice system today is crawling with ‘experts’ eager to exonerate the most heinous criminals on the grounds that they’re ‘genetically predisposed’ to murder, rape, take drugs, or otherwise endanger the welfare of others; the media fills its airwaves with liberal advocates eager to sympathize with murderers on death row, instead of the families of the innocent victims.”

All too frequently . . . the abolitionist's concern seems to be for the murderer rather than for the murderer's victims. And here it is a consideration of the utmost importance that the death penalty is an absolutely effective deterrent against the perpetration of more murders by the same person. . . . Van den Haag is forced to conclude that advocates of the abolition of the death penalty "think the lives of convicted murderers . . . are more worth preserving than the lives of an indefinite number of innocent victims." He perceives that such persons are not interested in deterrence so much as they are obsessed with the campaign for the abolition of capital punishment.

[quoted:] The intransigence of these committed humanitarians is puzzling as well as inhumane. Passionate ideological commitments have been known to have such effects. These otherwise kind and occasionally reasonable persons do not want to see murderers executed ever--however many innocent lives can be saved thereby. Fiat injustitia, pereat humanitas. [Van den Haag, "Collapse," p. 403.]]

Without the death penalty the unique and inviolable character of the human person is in effect denied, murder is reduced to the level of lesser crimes, and the life of man becomes cheap. (Philip Edgcumbe Hughes, Christian Ethics in Secular Society [Grand Rapids, Michigan: Baker Book House, 1983], 120-121)

This growing trend of enduring, pitying, embracing, and then turning on those who wish to remain innocent of wrongdoing is both insulting and harmful, as one Holocaust survivor wrote:

This mimesis, this identification or imitation, or exchange of roles between oppressor and victim, has provoked much discussion. True and invented, disturbing and banal, acute and stupid things have been said: it is not virgin terrain; on the contrary it is a badly plowed field, trampled and torn up. The film director Liliana Cavani, who was asked to express briefly the meaning of a beautiful and false film of hers, declared: “We are all victims or murderers, and we accept these roles voluntarily. Only Sade and Dostoevsky have really understood this.” . . .

I do not know, and it does not much interest me to know, whether in my depths there lurks a murderer, but I do know that I was a guiltless victim and I was not a murderer. I know that the murderers existed, not only in Germany, and still exist, retired or on active duty, and that to confuse them with their victims is a moral disease or an aesthetic affectation or a sinister sign of complicity; above all, it is precious service rendered (intentionally or not) to the negators of truth. (Primo Levi, The Drowned and the Saved, trans. Raymond Rosenthal [New York: Random House, Inc., 1988], 48-49).


Statements from depraved artists like Cavani help bring our entire social structure nigher the abyss of association. (As an aside, notice how beloved Michael Jackson was, even when people can relatively freely admit to his abnormalities . . . all because he was successful, rich, and famous.) As for this queer idea of supporting murderers—the very premise behind secret combinations—present ever since Cain first gloried in his wickedness (Moses 5:31), allow me to say that very few actions could put you any farther from the presence of God. Yet even in Christianity there is confusion about one’s unenviable state in relation to grace upon committing the misdeed.

There are those who profess Christianity, who believe that even the murderer who has imbrued his hands in the blood of his innocent victim may, by saying the words, “I believe in Jesus Christ,” be ushered into the presence of the Redeemer of mankind. This is false doctrine and I am thankful that this people are not deceived by such teachings, but that on the contrary we are placed in a condition to know how we may obtain the blessing of Celestial glory, and not be disappointed. (George Albert Smith, CR, Oct. 1923, 71)

Lorenzo Snow said, “It is a noticeable feature in those who cherish a spirit of apostacy from the light of the Gospel, that they adopt the doctrine of Universalism and think none too wicked for a complete and unconditional salvation” (in Eliza R. Snow Smith, Biography and Family Record of Lorenzo Snow [rep. Salt Lake City: The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, 1999; orig. Salt Lake City: Deseret News Company, Printers, 1884], 31). One can see this original apostasy resulting in the broader apostasy: “As to Redemption, Marcion taught a Gospel of love only. He represented the character of the Supreme God as one of pure benevolence—entirely without justice, a characteristic reserved to his second God. Irenaeus and Tertullian easily refuted this idea, explaining that the true God must possess both the attributes of goodness and justice, or cease to be God. . . . Marcion could not see this principle, nor comprehend the benefits of adversity upon Man. So he taught a gospel of universal love and forgiveness not unlike that taught in some Evangelical churches today” (Richard R. Hopkins, How Greek Philosophy Corrupted the Christian Concept of God [Bountiful, Utah: Horizon Publishers & Distributors, Inc., 1998], 166-167).

We dare not leave out the love of God and we dare not leave out the doctrine of Hell. Both are certainly true. Therefore they must be capable of reconciliation. The reconciliation must not come in ignoring Hell or believing in a kindly, good-natured God who does not judge severely about moral character and who only cares that His child should stop crying and be happy. We are having too much of this sentimentalism nowadays. It is a miserable misconception of that awful holiness which is “of purer eyes than to behold iniquity.” It would never explain the need of Christ dying on the cross to put away sin.

Whatever reconciliation we find here or hereafter it must have at bottom God's unutterable hatred of sin but also God's unutterable love and pain over every sinful soul which He has made. (J. Paterson-Smyth, The Gospel of the Hereafter [New York: Fleming H. Revell Company, 1910], 188)

A vicious sentimentalism is poisoning the wells. It is in the universities and colleges, the churches, the entertainment industry generally -- movies, television, newspapers, magazines, popular songs—in the wells from which we get our spiritual drink, from which our whole cultural life is irrigated. . . . Sentimentalism is not just a weakness, and is certainly not a virtue—it is confused with mercy—but a crime; and vicious sentimentalism is ordinary sentimentalism raised up in place of principle. . . .

It is not really capital punishment that bothers sentimentalists, though they use it as the cutting edge of their argument. They object to punishment itself; and that is because they deny the existence of justice; and that is because they deny that man is free, that man is responsible for his acts. (John Senior, The Death of Christian Culture [New Rochelle, New York: Arlington House, 1978], 107-108, 110)

Those who constantly invoke the sentiment of “who are we to judge?” should consider the anarchy that would ensue if we adhered to this sentiment in, say, our courtrooms. Should judges judge? What would happen if those sitting on a jury decided to be “nonjudgmental” about rapists and sexual harassers, embezzlers and tax cheats? Without being “judgmental,” Americans would never have put an end to slavery, outlawed child labor, emancipated women, or ushered in the civil rights movement. Nor would we have prevailed against Nazism and Soviet communism, or known how to explain our opposition.

How do we judge a wrong—any wrong whatsoever—when we have gutted the principle of judgment itself? What arguments can be made after we have strip-mined all the arguments of their force, their power, their ability to inspire public outrage? We all know that there are times when we will have to judge others, when it is both right and necessary to judge others. If we do not confront the soft relativism that is now disguised as a virtue, we will find ourselves morally and intellectually disarmed. (William J. Bennett, The Death of Outrage: Bill Clinton and the Assault on American Ideals [New York, New York: The Free Press, 1998], 121).

Paul indicated that love without dissimulation will “abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good” (Romans 12:9; see Alma 13:12, 2 Nephi 4:31, Amos 5:15). Charity itself assuredly does not extend its suffering long to movie screenings depicting every species of wickedness, for it “rejoiceth not in iniquity” (Moroni 7:45), and it certainly will not deprive man of his accountability or others of freedom from sin and all its practitioners.

Remnants of pre-apostate Christianity, with which I’ve been acquainting myself further this past year, testify to this: “We consider the looking on at a murder to be nigh to murder itself and forbid ourselves such spectacles” (Athenagoras, Embassy for the Christians, trans. Joseph Hugh Crehan [New York, New York: Newman Press, 1955], 76). “Who would fail to be horrified to see at the chariot races the frenzied brawling of the mob, to see at the gladiatorial contests a school in murder? At the theatre, too, this raving madness is undiminished, and the display of indecencies is greater; at one time an actor of farce may describe or represent acts of adultery, at another an effeminate pantomime may stimulate lust by simulating it—he even dishonors your gods by investing them with lovers' sighs, discords, and debauchery; he even induces your tears by feigning suffering with senseless gestures and signs. We can only conclude that murder is what you demand in fact and what you weep at in fiction” (Octavius, the Christian, in Marcus Minucius Felix, The Octavius, trans. G. W. Clarke [New York, New York: Newman Press, 1974], 122-123).

The Roman theater was borrowed from the Greeks, and the favorite dramatic themes were crime, adultery and immorality. . . . Lactantius wrote, “I am inclined to think that the corrupting influence of the stage is even worse [than that of the arena]. The subjects of comedies are the deflowering of virgins or the loves of prostitutes. . . . Similarly, the tragedies parade before the eyes [of the audience] the murder of parents and acts of incest committed by wicked kings. . . . Is the art of the mimes any better? They teach adultery by acting it out. How do we expect our young people to respond when they see that these things are practiced without shame and that everyone eagerly watches.”

Tertullian added, “The father who carefully protects and guards his virgin daughter's ears from every polluting word takes her to the theater himself, exposing her to all its vile language and attitudes.” He asked rhetorically, “How can it be right to look at the things that are wrong to do? How can those things which defile a man when they go out of his mouth not defile him when going in through his eyes and ears?” (Matt. 15:17-20) (David W. Bercot, Will the Real Heretics Please Stand Up: A New Look at Today's Evangelical Church in the Light of Early Christianity [Henderson, Texas: Scroll Publishing Co., 1989], 39-40).

As for sentiments in relation to lesser (yet grievous) sins than murder, I really squirmed at the sheer volume of inserted grotesqueness in Transformers 2. One individual informed me how uncomfortable they’d felt watching that with their parent present. (One may hope that wasn’t the only reason.) It has also dawned on me that perhaps we have slid so far because in many cases parents themselves are not embarrassed by it, or by having their children see it. I have largely cited material which was not LDS for four reasons: (1) I am not currently with my books; (2) to expose our nation’s recent accelerated apostasy in the arts from a heritage they are denying by their own actions; (3) to keep this shorter than it’d otherwise be; and (4) I'd like to go eat now!